i didn’t get the 2 year fellowship to hunter to study classical art/culture but i DID get a job at urban outfitters
………..what have i become
i took my lil sister to the city for her first time today!
and I just applied for a scholarship which will let me go to school there for my last two years for free!! majoring in something new and something kind of scary and something that could change my whole life but now I”m being dramatic but who knows???
maybe I’ll get it and maybe I won’t and maybe I will stop spending all my money on sweaters that don’t fit me and maybe I’ll be very happy
~~~ ~~ ~ ~~~ my panic attacks are back
I keep thinking “if I was home right now” or “if i was at school right now” — but it’d be the exact same thing because I’m so bad at having friends and I don’t know what this is about like literally where should i go what should i do
i’m so bad at keeping up with things and people and anything ugh I ‘m s o b o r e d and boring and like what am I doing anymore